SeCreT diArY

gRR...

2004-11-09T23:09:00.000-08:00

SobX... sobX... i'M... mAYbE wAd yOu WouLd caLL... ouT oF LoVe bA... i fEeL sO sAd... aNd i'Ve bEeN hoLdiNg bAcK mY tEaRs fOr soMe tiMe Le... i duNn wAnNa cRy... cRy oVeR hiM?? iTs hiM wHo huRt mE... sobX... tO hAvE mE tHiNk tHaT oNLy sTupiD gALs wOuLd cRy oVeR soMeoNe wHo iZit woRtH yOuR tEaRs... bUt iTs hApPeNiNg tO mE... riGhT nOw!! n tO tHiNk tHaT i LoVe HiM... aNd tHaT tHeY tEaSe mE aBouT mE aNd hiM... wAd cAn i do?? fOr 2 yEaRs... i'Ve bEeN 'sEcrEtLy LoViNg' hiM Le... juX bY rEadiNg wAd soMeoNe wRote tHaT sAYS tHe oNe He LiKe iS hEr... i juX............. hAiZ... tO tHiNk tHat SHE iS aCtuALLy mY bEsT fReN... iN tHaT rELatiONshIp.. i sAy i fEeL vErY 'YiLiN' tyPE... bUt... hErE??? kAiXiN pRoBaBLy suiTs mE bEtTeR nOw... tO thiNk i'M sO tRuSTiNg... aNd mY bEsT fReN sNatCh HIM aWaY fRoM ME!! riGhT bEfOrE mE!!! hAiZ... nOnOnO...As LoVe cAnoT bE forCe...i'LL juX fOrgEt aBout hiM bA... tHinK SHE aLsO duNn LiKe hiM dE... bUt... hAIZ... duNN tHiNk Le La... mAkEs mE mOrE sAd.. buT wAd i nEeD iS TIME... tO mAke mE 'recover' aGaiN..
soBx... i fiNd tHaT aS i'M wRiTiNg diZ... i'M cRyiNg...... wHy aM i sO siLLy tO cRy oVeR soMe1 wHo dOeSnt LoVe mE....

hMm...

2004-11-03T15:22:00.000-08:00

i fiNaLLy cAn aT LeaST i diN tHiNk oF hiM LeHx... bUt wOrSe iS tHaT... i tHiNk oF tHe OTHERS.. OMG.. tHiNgs aRe gEtTiNg wOrSe... WeLL... i hAvE dEciDeD... iTs eiThEr i fOrgEt aBouT hiM oR teLL hiM tHaT i LoVe hiM... bUt i thInK iT wOuLd bE tHe fOrmEr bA... CuZ iT wiLL dO bOtH oF uS gOoD.. eVeN iF hE rEaLLy LoVe hEr... wE cANT fOrCe LoVe... aNd aLSO... iF i teLL hiM i LoVe hiM... iT MIGHT hUrT mE eVeN MoRe... iF hiS aNs wAs tHat hE LoVe mE... i'LL oF cuZ bE tRuLy hApPy... oR rAtheR... hE dOesN'T LiKe hEr aLsO... aT LeAsT i duNn fEeL sO huRt... bUt tHe worsE i tHiNk oF iS tHaT hE MIGHT SAy hE LoVeS hEr... dEn i duNnO wHaT i'LL do... iT wiLL suReLy hurT mE.... alSO i miGhT nOt hAvE tHe cOurAgE tO fAcE hiM anD teLL hiM tHis... i juX hOpE wE cAN aT LeaST sTaY aS fReNx... mAybE oUr ReLatioNsHiP iS RaTheR juX CLASSMATES... oR fReNx... nOrMaL fReNx... nOt 'yOu dA yi sHaNg... LiaN rEn wEi MaN' tHat tYpE... bOtH mY bEsT fReNx sAy tHeY cAN sEe tHaT i LiKe hiM... iN a SeNSe oF mY AcTioN bA... eVeN iF tHeY nOe... i dOubT tHaT hE nOeS... gUyS aRe aLWaYs CARELESS... dEy duNn cArE gALs oNe LiL biT... i tHiNk mY aCts tOwArdS hiM hAVE sHow eNuFF... aT LeAst nOt eNuFF.. bUt tHeRE IS... hE stILL doEsNT rEaLiZe iT... whY?? sHouLd i giVe uP oN hiM??

fReaK oUt!!

2004-11-03T11:08:00.000-08:00

hAiZ... i'M tOtALLy aNnoYeD... i duNnO wHy... bUt iTs jUx tHaT i cANt tHiNk oF aNytHiNg tO mAke mYseLf TOTALLY fOrgEt aBouT hiM...iTs Lyk... i'M aLwAyS teLLiNg mYself... sToP tHiNkiNg oF hIM... bUt i JuX cANT... dEn i duNnO wHy.. bUt i tHiNk i woNt eVeR fOrgiVe mYseLf... i'M jUx cUrSiNg HER eVerY MinutE... i duNN tHiNk i sHouLd...maKeS mE fEeL sO 'yiLiNg' Lyk... i MeAn dE cHaNnEL 8 sHow- rEN wO aU yOu... [tHe cHaMpiOns]... dE gAL wHo wAnA bReAk tOrO aNd fiOnA XiE... bUt aT LeAsT i'M bEtTeR.. iN a sEnSe tHaT i duNn bReAk tHeM bY teLLiNg hiM i Lyk hiM... anD dOiNg aLL soRtS oF nOnSeNsE... aNd i rEaLLy hOpE tHey aRe nOt tOgEtHeR...

sHhZzz

2004-11-02T19:00:00.000-08:00

hMm... diZ iS mY aNotHeR bLog... nO1 nOeS dE... xCePt i'LL teLL mY tRusTwOrtHy fReNx oNLy... bAsiCaLLy... jUx tO wRiTe wAd i fEeL aBouT SOME pEopLe aNd mY sEcrEtS... iF yOu dO sTUmbLe uPoN mY bLog aNd bY chaNcE ReaDiNg iT... sHhZzzz... KeEp tHoSe sEcRetS tO yOurSeLf!!